Thursday, December 10, 2009

L.A.: The Final Blog- How do I like my PB, Chunky that's how...

I never knew that the last 8 months could be such an emotional experience. I never knew how much I had to learn about myself post-Simpson.

A friend once told me that Los Angeles is pretty much the opposite of what you think that it is. I would say that is true, and while I have never found love for this city- I have found love in something that I never expected to find, a group of friends that have challenged, strengthened, and loved me (and I them).
No one was telling me how it was going to be when I moved down. No one told me how much I would go through, or what kinds of conflictons I would deal with. I realize now that this semester wasn't really about film at all... it was about finding that balance in my life that once Spring semester 2009 at Simpson hit, was becoming harder and harder to find. I believe that in my senior year I finally lost track of where I was going- yet, I never felt as okay with that until now.

The difference? I can't really say for sure, but I believe that the people who have come into my life in this time have become cherished friendships and even more like family...

I can say that the connections I have made with these people that I love have created a unique, and ultimately touching bond that isn't easy to fully encapture into words. It was as if when we were able to get together, everything seemed to become less hectic- and it became more about shaping one another into our future lives.

So many people I could mention have become intregal parts of my life in the last 6 months. I say 6, because there are those at home that have helped me GREATLY and CONTINUE to do so every day. This blog entry is a culimination of that summer and this semester- as in this time I finally realize how much we need each other, and how much opportunity and beauty there truly is in the world...

I will miss each and every one of you... I don't know what a week from now is going to look like... and I don't know how I can explain to myself just what the next steps will be... but know that my love and support for you (whether in Washington, California, Minnesota, Texas, Florida, or elsewhere) will never die... because I simply don't believe in goodbyes... I only believe in the power that we (as human beings) share in creating/preserving/building love, that we have learned from our creator, that can withstand ANYTHING.

As I open my eyes I can see... just how impactful you have been on my life and it truly fills my eyes with tears... tears of joy and hope... and love....
I am truly saddened to leave you that are here... and those that I have made bonds with here (in LA)...
I am, at this moment, in full realization that this semester was probably the most difficult season of my whole life... but it was worth it... for all of you....

I love you all even more than words can say.
L.A. stay classy....