Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Angeles: Screenplays + Teas + Running on Full Speed

In moments of lenghty days, one should always have tea nearby. It has saved my life. Today I bought Red Roobios and Tension Tamer. Simply put: soul satisfaction. It adds to my steadily growing (box wise), slowly diminishing (individual bag-wise) addiction to the stuff. Maybe that's why I have trouble sleeping. Or maybe I can't get my mind to shut off in time. Seriously I feel as though my creativity is either being syphoned or squashed the last few days. I get little bursts, but if I don't latch on I feel lost and disoriented. Trying to come at something with this feeling of "it has to be perfect the first time through or its not worth it" mentality is slowly dying. I just can't expect my screenplay to become fully realized in a matter of minutes, and I can't devote short spurts of energy to something that needs large scale nourishment. I feel that if I had more time I could do it, but the past few days I have felt like I am on ramming speed. Either that or I am so dead that I can't do anything but zombify in a chair. I at least wrote Maggie's MPP script for her, and I am actually quite proud of the way it came out. It was a little story called "1999" involving a workaholic columnist who goes to a y2k party (80s themed) where she finds that her brother (who has been MIA from her life for the past few months) is attending. They reconnect and eventually she gives up her responsibilities, cause hey- y2k could have been the end...

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

listen to yourself... its amazing what you may hear

I have been going through old writings and listening to old songs... and I am surprised to hear my voice.

Both in writing and in vocal tone... my voice resonates a sound that I recognize as a "time and a place"... yet it also reaches out to me today... because it lets me know where I've gone... and how I've changed.

I miss making music. Almost all of my close friends in high school were musicians. A lot of my best/closest friends in college were musicians. I know a lot of musicians... I sometimes wish I knew how to play instruments just so I wouldn't have to rely on others, but at the same time having someone to confide in (music/creative wise) fills a niche that solo simply doesn't...

I know that my recorded music isn't that great... I know it needs a lot of work (and DEFINITELY a better recorder...because the last guys screwed me over... he didn't really care about helping me...).

I have had so many more experiences in the time since I recorded my last song (2007)... and I feel as though a comeback is on the horizon... maybe... who knows...

I need to start writing poetry/songs again...

if you are interested in hearing some of my stuff... just ask...