Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Reflections XIII: This is.... what I wanted to say... what I feel.... what I want to be conveyed....

Can anyone ever truly convey one's feelings in a simple blog, without downplaying the importance/breadth of the situation?

Can anyone ever really express the deepness of an issue/ a situation, without subjugating the subjective notions of a topic?

I agree with Matt Lopez more now than before. I still see the importance in writing this blog, and that is why I will continue. But I have to make a statement that Reflections X-XII do not completely convey the emotions I wished to convey.... and at times it seems that they downplay the breadth of the entire situation....

And so this is my prayer, my reflection, my confession, my lament, my hope, my dream, and my passion. It is both a message, and a pronouncement, a gift and a keepsake, a loss and a gain.

I give it to you God....
And in that I ask for patience.... and I ask for action, I ask for things to truly become resolved.... and I ask for attention.... I ask for humility... and I ask for peace....

I ask to be important.... I ask to be influential....
I ask, because I truly care, I wait because I want it to be honest... I care because of what was....and hope for what will be....
I learn.... I feel.... I hurt....
But I hope that .... I will find.... I will love.... I will observe...
Understanding is hard to find here... and I present it, please don't leave it... please don't leave it... please please please.. 'all the time in the world' is merely a limitation for... time is cruel... but I don't believe that you are....I believe that things are difficult... I believe that walls have been built... I believe in what was said... what was conveyed...and what was lived upon...and I am looking to connect... and be relieved, and be comforted, and be smiled upon

Please..